to love = selfless.

May 5th, 2010

the last posting was done on 30th January 2010… it has been 4 months.

through the journey of finding purpose in life, there was joy and there was pain. why so?

everything in life is about a balance, its never about answer of right or wrong.

as gwen understood her purpose in life is to build around people… there’s something she understood about love and the meaning of love by itself.

love is giving

love is forgiving

love is the feeling to give so that the person you love and care for is blissful and happy

love is the feeling of joy to see that someone in your life is happy

by giving that happiness to the other person, you set the person free and you hope to see the well-being of the other person

at least for her, if at any point in time that

a partner cannot trust the other half, there’s no love

a partner said something negative or doubtful about their other half, there’s no love

a partner cannot give to forgive, there’s no love

for a such a relationship, there’s only possession where a partner put him/her interests before the person they so called claimed to love.

when gwen came to such a realisation, she felt relieved to have know this earlier that would potentially bring her to another level in life and achieve more in love.

she ever once heard someone telling her this: when you love someone so much, you would just keep finding excuses for that person…

some would view that this is love… at least not for gwen.

she thinks that this is a form of finding reasons to reason the ‘ownership’ of A had over B? does the B feels the same? no! for this B has already made his/her way on the quest for a new purpose in life and to be with someone else, this B will keep looking for someone else.

she also thinks that this statement is a way to sweep things under the carpet so that A gets to keep the other person. this is a claim of possession/ownership and its not love.

should anyone still not understand the meaning of what’s to love, think about a parent to a child, the parent will keeping giving to see the well-being of the child and never ask for anything in return.

in order for you to love, you have to be big and when you think you can do so, you shift.

OM~

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purpose.

January 30th, 2010

it’s been quite awhile since she has last posted.

she has been pretty caught up with work but she is very happy. she is happy about the progress with how her goals shaped up so far.

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having a goal/goals is separate of having a purpose in life. because you need to first create a purpose in life so to know what goals are you heading towards in life.

but what exactly will bring a person to have a purpose in life?

the answer lies within: are you ready to live for yourself? (note: that is “live FOR yourself”)

when we look back in our lives, has it ever dawn on you or do you ever realised that almost half of our lives we lived for others?

disagree? well, we’ll see…

since young till we are able going into adulthood, didn’t we live with an expectation from our parents? (to get good grades and go to a good uni? no?)

then the expectation has some what mutated into a social responsibility that, “it’s time to get married”… “it’s time to have kids”

if you can give yourself a minute to ask yourself honestly this question:

“Are you doing it because it’s time for us humans to do so, OR what it my purpose and my passion to do so?”

then as the social expectations of you have been fulfilled, you are trapped with an expectation to fulfill your responsibilities to provide and groom the offsprings.

so, couple of years ago, she decided to live for herself to pursue what was taken away from her as she woke up one day realising, she has not been living with a purpose.

as she went on a journey to define a purpose for herself. she found it. having a purpose made her feel stronger and becoming a better person.

it’s never a mistake to take care of yourself first, it is then you are in better shape to take care of others.

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yet 90% of the souls out there have a misconception about ‘living for yourself’

it is not about living alone physically

it is not about loneliness

it is about finding who you really are

to have eyes for the bigger picture of what ‘relationships’ really mean

what relationships do we want in life?

its about building a relationship with yourself so that we can have a bigger view about life

it is about having a connection with yourself

when you understand the life purpose, you will fly

you will never feel alone

you will feel very happy within

you will feel strength in many things you want to achieve

you will feel strength to understand that perhaps certain things has it time and place

you take care of your physical self and you take care of your soul

most importantly you respect yourself

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as she understood the life purpose she had for herself

she could see that so many beautiful things can happen

she can bring so many beautiful things to many people in her life

her life purpose is to be around people and build wonderful things around them

this purpose had made her feel stronger to build bigger goals in her life

this purpose does made her understand more about having a millionaire mindset.

this purpose set her free.

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To anyone who is reading this right now, there’s so much more to having a purpose life… she hopes this post will inspire some souls out there.

OM~

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acknowledgment.

December 29th, 2009

as it is the ending of year 2009, she is ready for year 2010.

she had a wonderful day with her love earlier and most importantly there was an interesting yet important conversation that took place between them.

they shared a lot of things.

she was listening to him attentively, then there came along this conclusion she had about herself few days ago while celebrating Christmas.

the night of Christmas, she was asking her brother a few questions that brought about a conclusion that, sometimes, we lack of an acknowledgment about ourselves, our inner self.

what does that acknowledgment is about?

it’s about the inner voice that we hear to bring us to witness a fact, a truth or even a piece of information.

often, because the fact/truth/information in our inner voice may not be pleasing to us or they are not within our beliefs, we choose not to acknowledge them.

she thinks, by not acknowledging there comes an emotional make-up and that make-up will not bring eternal happiness. on the surface these emotional make-ups look perfectly fine but what about within their inner self?

as she has come to an understanding there are certain things she has to acknowledge, that had brought about some peace in her to welcome year 2010.

what does that acknowledgment do for you?

it sets you free (but its not facing the truth, because the side effects of facing the truth is that you have to deal with the emotions that sets in later ).

to acknowledge means witnessing a thought / an event that took place with no attachment or detachment to that thought/ event effortlessly. you view it like a 3rd person and you find the direction to move forward.

sounds easy? (she has no answer for this. there is no YES/NO, there is no RIGHT/WRONG)

she is amazed to have discovered so much of that thought process and so is her love one (he is ever so supportive to be doing this with her…)

OM~

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truth?

December 27th, 2009

as many might say ‘the truth will set you free…’

But do you think you speak the truth?

Do you speak the truth out of your own beliefs or do you speak the truth from the beliefs of others?

stuck as she was…

sometimes, we speak the truth to protect the interest of others however are you lying to yourself at the same time?

times, things/people that you know you really want (truth from yourself) … the truth from the reality is, it’s impossible.

what do you bring yourself to see, the truthfulness of your desire or the truth from the reality?

at the end of the day, facing either one brings a lot of pain.

what happens if she just standby and observe these emotions flowing in her?

we’ll see.

OM~

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what do you see?

December 24th, 2009

she watched the movie ‘Avatar’ which she thought the show was interesting and it had a very deep impact on her.

that impact on her brings about an understanding on how individuals perceive what they want in their lives and how they weigh the value behind of what they want.

however, what they want is REALLY what they want or they are carrying out the motions for the beliefs of others ‘installed’ in them.

as in the show, ‘the rich and the powerful’ saw ‘energy’ in a physical form that would lead them to their ‘wealth’ in terms of monetary value. wherelse, the other side ‘the poor’ saw ‘energy’ as a valuable form of connection among living beings to another and that ‘energy’ is passed on from one form to another that brings about an eternal harmony which is the ‘wealth’… now, what do you see of ‘energy’ and ‘wealth’ for yourself?

as a young girl who grew up in an average family, would see ‘wealth’ in terms of monetary value with a set of beliefs instilled by her own parents. 20years down the road, this day, her definition of ‘wealth’ has changed. when that realisation came along, there were situations she has planted herself in with a desire to find a balance, where both ‘monetary’ and ‘spiritual’ value of wealth has to be achieve together.

quote: mother nature do not take sides, they merely create a balance.

so what do you see about this ‘balance’? she bets, most people would measure ‘balance’ in a form of time management.

that ‘balance’ she seeks to achieve is about ‘what she wants’ to be in harmony with ‘where’ she is now… …

so what do you see of a ‘balance’ and ‘harmony’?

OM~

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disclaimer.

December 22nd, 2009

this blog has been created with the purpose to document the transformation of her thought process.

with the look of  the layout of this blog some would have an understanding that they will not understand what is going on through her mind.

BUT for those who may understand, congratulations.

the purpose to document the transformation of her thought process is to witness the awareness that has been developed within her so comes with the purpose within to interpret environmental informations that can eventually allow her to control her emotions.

so, do you see a white layout within a black background? or, do you see a black layout on top of the white background?

conclusion: our mind perceives information from its beliefs. BUT where do these beliefs come from? are these beliefs even valid?

she is on a journey to find out what AWARENESS could bring about the shift in her beliefs to bring about happiness within.

OM~

P.S. she is dedicating this blog to her love (Simon Kee) who has been the inspiration behind her spiritual growth. “thank you, baby” she says.

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